Wow only 2 letters and already theres a live changing post. Something happened today something clicked in my brain and I can't describe it.
All my adult life I've only been wanting to be on the path that God intended me to be on I've only wanted to do what god intended for me to do. I know that I made with a great plan, I was made to overcome things, to be a blessing to others... to be a strong impact on people and life. I know thats why he's made me grow a tougher skin, to realise that I need to lean on him in times of need and not other things.
Today I woke up to a rough call... my mother called me at 8:20am letting me know that the landlord is going to start the eviction proceedings today because we didn't make the rent today. We still owe 250 from last month and now the new 1500 dollar payment is due. She has worked with us and worked with us since mom got sick, she let us eat up the security deposit when Social security stopped the payments, and now since everything has been used up and there isnt anything left she has no other choice. I know that its not her fault.
I also know however that I need to figure this one out... and by me figuring this out it will show my mother that she needs to trust god more, she needs to let him handle things, she needs to not worry so much about smiting people (and stop focusing on negative) But the only thing i can think of is to move.
Bottom line she can not afford to live there, and I can not afford to pay the rent all the time. I've maxed myself to the gills and I just can't do it. This morning I prayed that God would get me thru this and I think hes trying to give me a gentle shove in the right direction.
Lord,
My faith in you is strong, please show me what you need me to do... please let me understand the path and become one with it. Please bless me so that I may be a blessing to others. Please bless me with the money and tools I need to become what you have intended me to come. They say to come right out and ask you for what you want. So I'm asking you to bless me with the finances to change whats going on around me.
Love,
Michelle
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